What if...

I've always been someone who prided myself on having very few "what ifs" in my life, but lately they have been dominating my mind.

There are so many areas we can end up with these questions in our lives. Job, friends, school, love, every decision every made. What if we just took that risk rather than play it safe? What if we spoke up to the one we cared about more than a friend rather than waited and hoped they would say something first? What if we defended ourselves rather than let that person walk all over us? What if rather than staying in our comfort zone at work we took a leap of faith and worked to get to where we really want to be rather than where we or someone else thinks we should be?

I'm at a stage in my life where there seems to be nothing that I can be sure of. Around every turn there are things I never expected and even in my own head I have trouble deciphering what is really true and what I just wish was true.

It is so easy to look back and wonder and even sometimes regret, but in the moments our fate is decided we aren't so good at realizing the gravity. Or even if we are, putting ourselves out there in whatever way is much more difficult than we may be prepared for.